New People…Old Problems…
Blah, tired of the stupid holes! The little squirter thing works luckily but it’s still annoying to have to use the stupid thing all the time. Whatever, hopefully I never have to deal with anything like this again…
Got the next season of Desperate Housewives, woot! I am watching it now so yay for no more boredom.
We got our new girl at work today and thankfully she seems to be pretty cool so far. I haven’t really had a lot of time to talk to her but she we went to lunch and talked. Turns out she is my age, married and has been through her marriage struggles as well. Unfortunately I think I am going to be out of the group, my supervisor and her husband will probably hang out with the new girl and hers and seeing how my husband is MIA I am the 5th wheel. I am really getting so tired of this. Either I am single or I am married, this limbo BS is getting extremely tiring. Ugh, and if he does move up here then what? Then we work on things and he pulls the same crap as always? I am not sure I have much faith in him anymore and I don’t know about our marriage. I am tired of trying to be sane while he has his freak outs or acts like a stupid child or does something stupid and painful to me. He doesn’t think and he doesn’t even seem to care. It hurts so bad that he could do this to me and he doesn’t even seem to care, do I want him back?
Don’t be so sensitive…
So I think the mouth wash stuff they prescribed to me may be making my teeth sensitive. I also think I have been using it a bit to much because I think I burned the tip of my tongue? Not pleasant so soon I think I may switch to salt water mix or listerine. I also finally got the syringe thing I kept hearing about so that can clean out the holes. I used it, it seems to work so far so yay! I can eat. I think I am still going to stick to softer foods for a while and at work it will still be stuff that I don’t have to worry about cleaning out of the holes. That is just an extra hassle I don’t need at work plus I don’t want to bring that syringe thingy everywhere with me. The Dentist said everything is healing well and it should take about 4-6 weeks for the holes to completely close. A pain but at least there is an end in sight, only another 3-5 weeks left…
I am finally at a point where I am no longer the only one teaching classes. I guess it has been decided that I have had enough training and done enough that the office can go back to normal rotation. I am happy because I was getting a bit tired of being the only one teaching. To be fair I still don’t have my days filled with stuff to do but it just gets tedious. Anyway, I have gotten some good kudos about my teaching so I am happy. I also officially put in for my leave and it has been approved so I am all set to go back to Cali for the holidays, woot! On the not so great side of things I have to drive a coworker to the airport at 3 in the morning on Friday. This guy gets the worst possible flights, I swear. I guess I can’t complain, I volunteered because it means I get money (technically it is gas money but he gives more than what it actually takes so I make a little and I need it) and now he will owe me a favor….well a couple, I have to pick him up at 1130 at night on his return. I kind of like people owing me favors, it is usually comes back nicely in one way or another.
My husband has me worried. As far as I can tell he is suffering depression and his situation just keeps getting worse. I can’t help him and I love him but I also worry about what will happen if he moves out here. I love him but I don’t want to be unhappy, I spent so much time being unhappy I don’t want to go back. the problem is he is so pessimistic and negative and I don’t know how or if he can be pulled out of this. He somewhat has to choose to and I don’t know if he will, if he doesn’t then it is just going to make me unhappy. I don’t know if we will work out or not and I am at such a great place right now minus the issues with him and it is still a new and fragile thing I don’t want to lose it. I guess it is all just a bunch of fears and I can’t do much but take the same advice I give him, face my fears. I just have to see what he decides and see where it goes, hopefully it goes well but that is really all his choice.
I think…
I got food stuck in the holes from my teeth. Sister has reassured me and found information that says I should be ok, I love her for that (and many other things obviously but for now that is the most prominent). <3
Stupid Wish List…
Ugh! My Amozon Wish List is causing problems! I apparently had two accounts and for some reason it kept switching me between them. Well I ended up deleting one of the wish lists I accidentally made on the wrong account and now I can’t access my real wishlist from any account. It still exists, I can search it and it is still there but I can’t add or delete anything or tinker with it. It is bugging me but whatever.
Also, my washing machine has broken. This is irritating because I can’t get it fixed because of money and my lack of it. I have less than two weeks until I go home for the holidays (I think I am down to 11 days, woot!) and a large portion of that time will be in uniform. I can make it work and hopefully by the time I come back I will have some money to put toward the problem and get it solved. It is just frustrating at the beginning of the month because rent takes a large portion of my check so I don’t have a lot for the next couple of weeks. Eventually I will have enough saved from my second check to make it easier and balance it out through the whole month but that is a cycle I have to start and haven’t had the opportunity yet. The holidays, unfortunately, are sucking away my funds. I splurge on people for gifts and though I haven’t gone out of my planned budget stupid things like the washer breaking happen and I am all sorts of messed up. Luckily it is almost January, and what happens in January? More money for me. At the start of the year is a pay raise plus I should be done with my GI Bill payments. It is supposed to be 12 months I just don’t know if they took the first month the January I started or the February after so everything could get sorted. Whatever the case, soon I will have extra money to make everything easier. Bleh, eventually I will get this whole money and budgeting thing down…hell, maybe I will even get some money into my savings account one day, that would be nice.
I want to eat real food! I think I could technically eat it now (most foods anyway), my jaw doesn’t hurt and it has been almost a week, but I still have holes. I don’t like the idea of getting food in the holes. I think I am at a point where I couldn’t get an infection but i am not positive either. I want at least a layer of gum tissue rather than just the blood clot. The holes are still getting smaller so hopefully I don’t have to wait long. It’s just odd, I was told I could eat whatever I felt comfortable with after the first 24 hours (barring straws) but I just don’t wanna…it’s too weird to me. I know tons of other people have done it so I guess it doesn’t cause that big of a problem and I just swish my mouth with water or something and that clears it all out? Meh, I will figure it out as I go. I have tried mac n cheese and that was ok but I mainly tried to chew with my front teeth (kind of irritating I must say) and just swallowed without chewing too much. I am having spaghetti O’s for lunch tomorrow so I think it will be much of the same. I guess I just keep up with the super squishy, soft, melt in your mouth and liquid foods until I just can’t take it anymore.
Salsa Time
So I need a good pico de gallo recipe. I plan to start making breakfast burritos (when I can actually eat real food anyway) and want to try to make them as close to this restaurants method as possible. I have figured that the key to theirs is the salsa they use which is pico de gallo as far as my breakfast burrito. Other than that I think all they use is ham, shredded potatoes, cheese, and eggs, easy enough so the key has to be the salsa. I figure that they should be soft enough for me to munch when I get a little further into the healing process. So this brings me to my question for anybody who bother’s to read, anyone have any good pico recipes for me?
I was checking out the holes in my gums and it looks like they are actually kind of healing…one of them for sure at least. The hole is a lot smaller than it originally was though I can’t see the top holes so I need to go buy one of those little dental mirror things. Once I figure out how everything is healing maybe I can get a better idea of how much longer I have to worry about getting stuff stuck in my gums, very good information to have. Overall though I think it is going well and I should be past the worrying phase and am pretty much just in the irritating recovery phase, only maybe a month of that from what I am hearing…hopefully a little less and very definitely hoping not any more time than that.
I think today I am finally getting out of the house. Unfortunately the problem is I don’t have any money to really do anything so my getting out of the house will probably consist of driving around not doing a whole lot, throwing out my trash and checking my mail. At least I get some fresh air though. It will hopefully help with the boredom. Hubby has the day off so I am hoping to get a long call from him, I will most likely at least get a short one since he is supposed to be searching through the garages to see if any of our stuff was stolen. Should be an interesting day with many interesting reports from him. Hopefully no bad news or angry husband. I don’t need him all frustrated and me already bummed and tired of being stuck in the house if we start out with angry then it will quite possibly end up in a big fight that I don’t want. The goal is to be nice and happy and get along and make things work, I think arguing very definitely works against that goal especially if it is for petty little non important things.
Stupid Teeth
I’m bored and being bored is making me a bit irritable…I am watching more Desperate Housewives and as sad as it may be I am totally interested. The beauty of it is I have the whole season so I don’t have to wait for new episodes, I love that. I have this tendency to get bored if I have to wait for a show and generally lose interest so having it to just go through as I choose to makes me happy. I am not a terribly patient person I suppose but life is too short to spend it waiting around for things.
I am also very paranoid about getting dry socket so every random twitch and pain in my mouth I think has to be dry socket. It’s silly, I know because everybody says if it is dry socket you will know for sure but I keep thinking it is just the beginnings. I think after today which is day 4 I am for the most part out of the woods with the dry socket thing from some of what I am reading but I will probably still be a bit paranoid, at least for a few extra days. I miss eating real food though so those cravings may win out and force me to start slowly progressing throw the soft but real stuff. I donno, my big craving is mexican food right now and what I usually eat is softer so maybe I can try that? I just have to stay away from chips and salsa and that is a bit more difficult for me. For now though I will stick to the liquids and squishy stuff. Ugh…curse these wisdom teeth, gone but still a pain in my butt…
I only have a couple weeks before I go home, I am excited. Nervous but excited, the countdown keeps going…
Happy (real) Turkey Day!
Happy Actual Thanksgiving! So what is everyone thankful for today? I am thankful that so far my wisdom tooth removal healing seems to be doing fairly well…Oh, and of course my family and friends and just about everything else in my life right now 
I had a really good post thought out last night but the unfortunate thing is I decided to sleep instead hoping I would remember in the morning. I know I never remember in the morning but I had hope that maybe I would this time, I was wrong. I have vague memories of what I wanted to write about but don’t know exactly. I really should start taking a notebook to bed or something…
So hubby and I got in a fight yesterday. It was one of those that was kind of inevitable, he had stress building up over the month and had a bad day and I had my long day as well. We started a discussion and we just sort of kept getting worse. Someone would say something, then the other would get defensive and say something snippy and we just kept one upping each other until I hung up on him. Not the most mature thing but honestly probably the best thing. I realized that it wasn’t going to end happily and well no matter what either of us said so the best thing to do was just end the conversation got worse. We continued talking through text, like we used to do. Whenever the fights got bad we stopped talking and texted, it cleared away the defensive bs because we had to stop and think about what we were typing and we took out the random voice tones that can be taken wrong. We texted and started talking and got some things out and most importantly apologized. I grew up and realized it wasn’t all his fault and apologized for my part. I knew I had been bad and snippy so I tried to make up for it. He responded to my apology and we managed to somewhat salvage the night. We tried the whole phone call thing again, considered the first one a do over and so we talked and had a decent conversation. When I was about to go to bed he sent me his apology and even though it was delayed I kind of liked that better. It meant he actually thought about it and most likely meant it. It wasn’t prompted wasn’t forced, it was meant. It was progress, when we fought before it used to be about who could win. It used to be just angry, each person put up their defenses and attacked. It’s finally different, a step back and actually be able to stop ourselves before it is that bad and apologize while actually meaning it. Any apologies from before used to be superficial, just because we knew they were supposed to be said, I like meaning them better.
Day 2
So first day of recovery down. So far all seems to be going pretty well, took my pain meds every 6 hours as instructed, brushed my teeth very carefully this morning and used some of the mouth wash stuff they gave me. I am still sticking with the pretty much liquid diet, I feel like I could eat more but I would rather be safe than sorry so I will stick with it for a little longer. Luckily I have more than enough supplies to last me through a while of liquidish diet so I am set. I am not in pain, perhaps that is because of the pain meds or it could just be that they really don’t hurt much. I am sore but can open my mouth fairly easily, I think the third day is supposed to be the worst for pain but if it is close to this I should be able to handle it. I haven’t even started on the heavy pain medications they gave me, just the Ibuprofen so I should be good.
So I got charged a ridiculous amount on one of my bills and I seriously say it is a mistake. It was for my internet card and they said I more than doubled the allowable limit and that I had reached my limit by the 19th. I don’t see this as possible because I was working and going to bed early because that was before our big inspection and then I was gone for a week. So, basically they are telling me that in a little more than a week I had doubled my monthly limit that I have never even come close to before. I have used more internet this month and still haven’t touched my limit so I call bull. Whatever, they cut the charges in half which is still a ridiculous amount and I have decided that the stupid little internet card will be put away for a while and not used unless absolutely necessary. I paid that bit but I paid it on my credit card so it wouldn’t affect my actual Christmas budget. I could have bought Christmas presents on the card but I would rather use my debit card for the presents so I keep track of them better. Silly but it is just the way I chose to do it, though now I have more to pay down on my credit card. Bleh, after holiday shopping is done I will put the extra money toward putting my credit card back down to where it was and back on track.
After watching the first season and half of the second season of Sex and the City I have decided that though the show is ok I am not terribly impressed. Miranda drives me insane as a character and the show is kind of repetitive. Good for short quick entertainment but not a show I will invest a lot of time in I think.
Edit: So Sex and the City has grabbed my attention, it apparently just took a bit to pick up or I am just that bored, and my new food of the moment is chicken broth and egg. It is yummy and filling (at least for a bit), a good thing to have when you can’t really chew.
Four Teeth Lighter…
So the teeth are gone. I went in for surgery today, they put me out and I woke up not long after 4 teeth lighter. I have a large piece of my face still numb but the rest of it seems to have worn off. I have been icing each side 20 minutes on 20 minutes off and I am hoping that this extra effort will keep the swelling down. So far I don’t seem to have any pains, nausea or any other major obvious problems but it has still only been a couple of hours. My friend who took me had to go back to work but she left me with the first three seasons of Sex and the City and the first season of Desperate Housewives. I don’t seem to be loopy from the meds which is good, I kept hearing the heavy pills would make me sleepy and messed up. The only possible side effect seems to be the occasional major itch that I can’t seem to make go away by scratching. It also doesn’t help that I seem to itch where I am numb, hopefully it’s not a thing that sticks. My big trouble now is remembering not to spit. Obviously it is kind of a natural thing when you brush your teeth and I will be doing salt water rinses and spitting would be normal there as well so I have to just remember not to. I don’t want to mess up and end up with dry socket or infections or anything, it worries me. Now that the numb seems to have worn away a little bit I seem to have reached the part where I can’t really open my mouth a whole lot. It isn’t as bad as I thought it would be, I am not yet regretting not buying the baby spoons, then again I haven’t really tried eating yet. I am waiting to try to get that last bit of numb lip to go away. If my cheeks are numb fine but I don’t want to try to eat (drink really) again with a numb lip. I did it the first time so I could take my pain meds but it was just weird, and difficult when you feel like you have a fat lip.
I got to talk to hubby a bit last night a couple of times which I was happy about. At first he said he would try to call before I left this morning for surgery but I kind of knew that wouldn’t be happening. Not saying anything negative toward him, just the fact the I went in for the pulling at about 0730 in the morning and that’s a bit earlier than he would like to wake up. I don’t hold it against him, I was fine with it and totally understood it so I was happy to get some conversation in last night. I still don’t know where we stand or what his answer will be when I get out there but at least we are having happy conversations again. We aren’t really fighting, everyone in a while we snip at each other but we haven’t really gone crazy recently. It’s nice and we seem to be making progress, but as I said, I have no idea but I like the happiness we have found for now.
Other than the teeth thing…I’ve got nothin’. I don’t think I have anything else to say so I am just going to leave it at that. I will continue to update with my wisdom teeth stories and progress.
