Congrats Grad!
So my sister graduated from college last week, yay to her! I went home and spent some time with my family and actually had a pretty decent time. I went to some restaurants that I love, got to get my nails done, and got to visit my cousins bakery and got some awesome cupcakes. It was surprisingly relaxing over all, there were a couple of iffy moments but they passed and all was good. Honestly it went better than I expected and I am very happy with that. I plan to go back I am just not sure when would be best, I have a baby shower I can try to go to at the end of the summer, my mom is coming out in December for her own thing so I can go down then, or I can choose an entirely different time, I’m just not sure, I will worry about it later though.
Now it is back to work tomorrow and for now I am in the same spot I usually am, I should really be doing schoolwork. I only have a couple of weeks left and really not as much done as I would like and yet I just don’t feel motivated to do it. In art I am at least at the point where I will have a C and yet it would be so ridiculously easy to get 100% of the points. Communications is as ever struggling, I just cant find motivation for it. I have at least gotten a bunch of the quizzes done and then I have to do a bunch of journals and papers that I just don’t want to. I am guessing I will probably be working on it while I am at work like I have been and hopefully then come home and do some and get it all taken care of…we will just have to see.
Snowboarding woot!
I went snowboarding yesterday for the first time…ouch!! I wasn’t originally planning to but I needed to get out and do something. It ended up being more expensive than I thought (stupid goggles) but hopefully that doesn’t really bite me in the butt later. Overall it was good times. Originally we started out on the nice fluffy hill, it had been snowing pretty much the last 3 days so it was all fresh and soft so at first it didn’t hurt to fall and I actually did pretty well on that hill. Well once we finished one run on that hill the guy with us who is actually good at snowboarding wanted us to try the next hill, it was supposed to still be easy just a bit longer. It wasn’t, it hurt. It was a more used hill so everything was smoothed out and it was steeper so I went a lot faster…I didn’t want to go fast, I wanted control first and to learn the basics then go faster. I fell on that hill a lot and I fell hard since it wasn’t the same fluffy stuff. It was painful, I landed on my wrist because it is natural reaction to catch myself and it hurt. I took a few tumbles and my butt hurts so bad right now. I think I lightly bruised my tailbone since I hit it pretty hard but hopefully overall it should be pretty quick to heal. My muscles are sore but I am happy about that, apparently snowboarding burns a lot of calories and since my muscles are sore hopefully it helps with my toning goals too. All in all and awesome but painful day.
And now lets check on the budget. It’s tight. I have goals for my money and I am down to the point where every penny counts. I need to get enough money pooled together so I can make it out to Cali for my sisters graduation. I also need to gather more info, I wish my mom would just tell me that of course I can stay at the house but she wont. She used to tell me I would always have a place there and she would love me to come and visit and yet as soon as I left that space was gone, especially once the husband actually decided to stick around there was no place to come back to. Unfortunately that makes it almost impossible for me to visit. I don’t have money for hotels, the plane tickets have gone up in cost not to mention food and the rest of the stuff that goes with a visit. I won’t be able to get a rental car so staying at the house meant I wouldn’t need one and I also wanted some extra money to hit up the theme parks out there. They just brought Captain Eo back to Disneyland and I really want to go! Plus I haven’t been able to get to Six Flags for a while even though I intend to every time I go back. Too much stuff, I am trying to plan it all out but without those extra bits of info I can’t decide how long I will actually be out there. If I can’t stay at the house then this will possibly turn into a quick almost overnight trip, if I can then I can actually use a bunch of leave and have time to hang out. I really want time to hang out but blah. I guess if this doesn’t work out I will still get to her graduation and save extra leave for when I do have money and I can use it to go somewhere crazy. We will just have to see.
California!
So I got to Cali a couple of days ago and things are interesting to say the least. The family dinner was not nearly what I was expecting, not the happy fun it usually is. This year was an interesting one and we just have to see how they go next year, hopefully they stay good for some and get better for others. Talked with hubby, been talking with him. I don’t think I am really going to post anything until it is all finally set by my standards but at the very least there is a lot of stuff to work through for both of us. This will be an interesting few weeks I think. Other than that not too eventful yet, today should be visiting the house and starting to decorate for Christmas while my sister attempts to cook some random thing I stumbled her online. I will of course leave the decorating occasionally to peak my head into the kitchen, talk to her and keep her company as well as make sure she doesn’t burn the house down. We were discussing some of her cooking experiences last night and have decided she has an odd knack for creating new creatures…blobs and things that jiggle and move all on their own, lol. I will definitely be carefully watching.
The downside of vacations…
I don’t wanna clean…or pack. I guess I kind of have to though, anyone want to do it for me?
Trickery…
Taught classes today, I was tricked, I thought there was only one but apparently there were two. Still, not a bad deal, teach a couple classes and get a day off. I must admit, however, I am extremely tired of teaching classes, only one more next week and I am done for a little while and then after that I shouldn’t be teaching 2 a day again for a while. Now I will take my day of so I can prepare to go home, woot! I am still trying to figure out what my sister and I are doing for my mom’s Christmas gift but she hasn’t responded about it, guess I just have to bug her some more. I also have a friend who is super excited to hang out when I get back so we will see how that goes.
I am down to 4 days before I leave for home. I am excited but nervous, I couldn’t stop thinking last night which made it so it took forever to get to sleep. Hubby says he should have an answer by the time I get there rather than when I leave so I am looking forward to just ending all of the confusion and nonsense. I know I have said that a lot but it is just more and more on my mind the closer I get. I am worried about the answer and yet not, I know I will be ok either way and both paths cause their own stresses and at this point I don’t know if one is any better than the other. Ugh, it will be done soon and then I will finally have progress to report to the great wide internets…
6 More Days!
Weekend, huzzah! I am teaching again on Sunday but that is just a couple of hours and then I will get a day off to make up for it. I figure that day off will be the day before I leave for Cali that way I can take care of last minute things and get ready to go. I am debating doing that or maybe taking off a PT day, though I do really need the PT since it has been a little while. Meh, I will figure it out later for now it is the weekend. Not only that but it is the last weekend before I go back and see my family! By this time next week I will be all set up in my hotel in Cali trying to figure out what to do next…and making sure to pre-order a lovely turkey for Christmas dinner.
Took the coworker to the airport this morning and it actually didn’t go too badly. I had to wait for him after I drove to pick him up because for some reason he hadn’t taken care of everything before he had to leave, I was frustrated and irritated at that but I dealt with it. Once he was finally ready to go it was a quick and easy drive and I got paid for it, gas money plus a little extra and I really need money so it’s all good.
A Little Better…
So after I got angry yesterday I actually managed to get a hold of my husband (by text only but it was something at least) and heard something that I really needed to hear from him. I am still broken and still worried but I am at least somewhat steady again. I only have another week of this and then I am back in California and finally I can get some clarity and answers and some face to face discussions whether they be good or bad…though hopefully good.
Tomorrow I have to drive to the airport at 3 in the morning then continue on to work but after that it’s the weekend so woot for that! This weekend I think will be spent finishing season 2 of Desperate Housewives and starting on season 3. This show has me pretty sucked in, sadly my friend only has up through season 3 so after that I will have to wait a bit to watch it again.
Don’t be so sensitive…
So I think the mouth wash stuff they prescribed to me may be making my teeth sensitive. I also think I have been using it a bit to much because I think I burned the tip of my tongue? Not pleasant so soon I think I may switch to salt water mix or listerine. I also finally got the syringe thing I kept hearing about so that can clean out the holes. I used it, it seems to work so far so yay! I can eat. I think I am still going to stick to softer foods for a while and at work it will still be stuff that I don’t have to worry about cleaning out of the holes. That is just an extra hassle I don’t need at work plus I don’t want to bring that syringe thingy everywhere with me. The Dentist said everything is healing well and it should take about 4-6 weeks for the holes to completely close. A pain but at least there is an end in sight, only another 3-5 weeks left…
I am finally at a point where I am no longer the only one teaching classes. I guess it has been decided that I have had enough training and done enough that the office can go back to normal rotation. I am happy because I was getting a bit tired of being the only one teaching. To be fair I still don’t have my days filled with stuff to do but it just gets tedious. Anyway, I have gotten some good kudos about my teaching so I am happy. I also officially put in for my leave and it has been approved so I am all set to go back to Cali for the holidays, woot! On the not so great side of things I have to drive a coworker to the airport at 3 in the morning on Friday. This guy gets the worst possible flights, I swear. I guess I can’t complain, I volunteered because it means I get money (technically it is gas money but he gives more than what it actually takes so I make a little and I need it) and now he will owe me a favor….well a couple, I have to pick him up at 1130 at night on his return. I kind of like people owing me favors, it is usually comes back nicely in one way or another.
My husband has me worried. As far as I can tell he is suffering depression and his situation just keeps getting worse. I can’t help him and I love him but I also worry about what will happen if he moves out here. I love him but I don’t want to be unhappy, I spent so much time being unhappy I don’t want to go back. the problem is he is so pessimistic and negative and I don’t know how or if he can be pulled out of this. He somewhat has to choose to and I don’t know if he will, if he doesn’t then it is just going to make me unhappy. I don’t know if we will work out or not and I am at such a great place right now minus the issues with him and it is still a new and fragile thing I don’t want to lose it. I guess it is all just a bunch of fears and I can’t do much but take the same advice I give him, face my fears. I just have to see what he decides and see where it goes, hopefully it goes well but that is really all his choice.
