Worst Morning Ever!
So hubby has a problem. Hubby gets tired at a decent time in the night but stays awake until a ridiculous time and tends to just randomly pass out, normally on the couch. For a while he would wake up after a couple of hours and wander back into the bedroom, then it started to be me waking him up and getting him to the bed. I told him yesterday that I was over that, since he broke my phone and it won’t charge he has been using his phone as an alarm, well we finally dug the alarm clock out of other room so I could have an alarm. So last night as usual I went to bed earlier than him and we had a conversation that included a couple of promises about him not falling asleep on the couch and he would come to bed. So, as usual I wake up randomly through out the night and hubby is not there, it is a pretty quick conclusion that he has once again passed out on the couch and though I was tempted to go grab him I decided to actually stick to my word and so just went back to bed waking up occasionally. Come the morning his alarm is going off and he is not turning it off and then the main alarm goes off, once that happens I go out and tell him to wake up he has to get ready for work and all that. He eventually comes into the bedroom and lays down on the bed all upset. He says he feels really bad and I am irritated and pissed off and so we snip at each other a bit. In the end for some reason I start feeling bad, no idea why and that just pisses me off more, I try to make him feel better and let us both be a bit happier but it seems he is having none of that. It just builds up into a ton of stupidity and he flips out on me for feeling bad and feeling like he is taking it out on me because he swears he isn’t but just the fact the he is so angry obviously is going to come back at me somewhat. Considering he was the one who messed up you would think he would be trying to make it up and be nice to me but apparently not. So he ends up leaving all pissed off and I am pissed off and it was just a stupid bad morning. He called me on his lunch but that wasn’t spectacular either. I really hope that tonight isn’t this stupid…
OUCH! Stupid husband…
Life, at this moment, is boring….and painful. I went to workout yesterday after having already done PT earlier and now I hurt, so sore. When hubby got home I asked him to crack my back and he got some amazing deep cracks. A little relief but overall, still sore, and I have to PT tomorrow and I am gonna let my supervisor kick my butt with a second workout round again. I am doomed, but hopefully it will be worth it…hopefully.
Hubby’s new job is so far good though I have found my issue with it, there always has to be one. Last night hubby didn’t get home until I was pretty much already in bed (I go to sleep early to be fair) and so we had no “us” time. Since this shop is supposed to be one of the biggest in the district it gets tons of work which means him being so late probably won’t be an entirely uncommon thing. It sucks especially because we won’t have weekends, he gets his days off during the week. I really hope they put him on opening shifts that way we will have some time together and the carpool will actually work out better. As it stands while he works I am carpooling with my supervisor which irritates me a bit. I asked many times if there was going to be an issue with him getting up early and making this all work carpooling and sharing one car and he said no problem, he was doing it while he was in Cali so he would be fine. Fail, he doesn’t want to have to wake up early when he works later so he wants me to get rides with my supervisor. Fine, except that means I kind of have to go do the workout thing with her and if she leaves late I have to leave late. I hate depending on other people for rides and stuff like that, it means if I am running late I screw them up too. Ugh, whatever, she is moving soon so I probably won’t be able to carpool then he has to suck it up.
bleh…blarg…just a little off
Blah! I am tired…oversleeping maybe? I don’t know but I like sleeping so I am going to keep aiming for a wake up time of noon ish.
I weighed myself on the wii fit this morning and I am excited, I am down to 142.9…I don’t even know when I last weighed that. My goal is to break out of the 140′s entirely sometime hopefully soon-ish. Obviously I have more specific goals that are more oriented toward toning and what I can actually do like how many push ups and stuff, but it would just be cool to see something other than 140. I think in general weight goals though are good guidance aren’t as good as some other ones. I guess it also all depends on what you are going for but a lot of people want that all over toned look and seem to think that will be achieved simply by reaching this magic weight and though some people are that lucky most of the time it takes things other than simple weight loss. Not to mention if you are toning than a specific weight could be an issue because adding muscle causes you to weigh more but still look better and be healthier.
I wish people would be more on the ball. I mailed out a check forever ago and the guy still hasn’t cashed it and it is really bugging me. I like having money in my account that I can actually use rather than constantly having to recalculate and account for this large chunk that is technically spoken for. And I don’t like the idea that if I slightly overspend my check will bounce and that person can’t get their money. It is just extra annoyance and I am about to send him another check and deal with it all over again. Can’t wait until this stupid thing is freaking paid off. I am also trying to account for money properly because we have to get the uhaul and any money that doesn’t go to that I want to try to put toward that car so I need to know what is actually free in my account. Unfortunately I also need a good idea how much gas will cost and I have no idea whatsoever…stupid variables. Whatever the case the uhaul will get here and with it so shall my husband. I am super excited, if it works out right two weeks after however many months of waiting…a year if you want to count since I went to basic…crazy.
I still don’t feel well…I don’t think it has anything to do with alcohol, that time has passed, I just feel weird. Still super lazy but that isn’t totally new, it is cold outside and it just doesn’t seem worth the effort to put on however many layers for dryer sheets. I will just wait until I go to work and just do it all together. But I feel generally odd, like I cant get a comfy temperature at all…one second I am burning hot then I am freezing cold and I am a bit dizzy here and there, nothing big just slightly weird. Meh, I think my body can’t decide if it is over the cold or not…
Kicking The Habit
I have finally kicked the habit. What habit is that? Waking up so darn early. I have gone a couple of days an managed to sleep in (and I mean really sleep in, to about 11) each time. I think my body has officially realized that I have no reason to be up at 5 or 6 in the morning now, yay!
Went to Disneyland yesterday, knock one off of my list of theme parks. We went on a Walk in Walt’s Footsteps tour which was actually kind of interesting though I am not sure it was entirely worth it. It was a birthday gift from my mom to her husband and he didn’t seem very grateful or really interested at all honestly. Oh well, she was excited about giving it and he wasn’t being really mean about it so maybe he was and he just has his own way of showing it. We went on lots of rides, had lots of food and watched some shows. That’s pretty much what there is to do at a theme park, right? Sister only ended up working for a couple of hours instead of four which I was super happy about because for some reason time seemed to really slow down when it was just my mother, her husband and I. We wanted to see the fireworks, it was one of the big things of the night but unfortunately about a third of the way through they got canceled, it was a bummer but it still snowed. Maybe I can see it all together next year or something. I also lucked out when her husband was actually willing to leave early. Usually he won’t leave until the park closes but last night, whether it be because of a very grumpy set of sisters or my mother’s poking, we made it out about an hour before.
Overall it wasn’t as bad as I expected it to be and so far the time with my mother isn’t going too badly. There were a couple of moments where she said something that could have really irritated me but it was less than usual and I just had to let them go, or at least bite my tongue. I expected this trip with her to be a lot worse than it is turning out so far, it is far from over but hopefully it doesn’t get bad.
Just Some Thoughts
I think my cat is chasing his tail in the bath tub…weirdo.
I love getting out of work early on a 3 day weekend, it’s awesome! Not to mention we also have Wednesday off next week (random to have a day of in the middle of the week but i’ll take it) so the week will be a short one. We are going out for a farewell dinner party thing too so it will be a good week.
So yesterday’s post was intended to be a more refined post but unfortunately I hit a wall of tired but it was something that I really wanted said and knew I probably wouldn’t get back to it if it wasn’t at least generally written already. Tonight is not the night to edit it and honestly I am not sure if there will be a point it gets edited but at least it is there.
I just got back from hanging out with people and have hit my wall of tired again and am probably going to crash soon. At least I am up later than 7 or 8, I feel like such an old person, I really need to find more stuff to do. I need a new partner in crime, someone who will get into mischief with me. December is creeping ever closer and I guess I figure out from there if I need an entirely new partner in crime or if I just have to fix the old one, as he always says, we will see.
Cleanliness is Next to Godliness.
Life is so much easier when stuff is clean. I used to be pretty messy, I had a ton of stuff and not a lot of space to keep it and cleaning was always just such a pain. I have realized the problems I had, it wasn’t clean to start and there was too much junk. Once stuff is clean it is just a matter of maintenance which isn’t nearly so bad. My apartment is way cleaner than my bedroom ever used to be. I just did a quick run through today, took me maybe an hour at the most to clean everything (that of course doesn’t count laundry time because the washer and dryer takes its own time to run). I got my kitchen done, vacuumed, cleaned up the cat box, it was just easy. I must admit I have a lot less stuff than I used to, or at least a lot more space for it so it is all less cluttered and easier to get around so that can be a problem too. I am glad I have certain things back but some of it was just a waste of space and it is kind of nice to live lighter. I was a pack rat, still am I suppose but no where near as bad now that I have realized the beauty of clean.
I got to sleep in late yesterday, it was awesome. I woke up on and off but over all I made it to 1130, the cats were totally confused about why there wasn’t more food out by 0700. I woke up occasionally and there would be a cat scratching at my door or mewing and when I actually went out my door they were sitting there staring at me. It’s not like they didn’t have any food in their dishes, there was some but they didn’t like that it wasn’t filled up, fat fuzzballs. I didn’t get to sleep so late today but that’s ok, I guess I wasn’t up late enough. The night before I was DD and went to hang out with a group of friends at a pub place, it was kind of interesting, it cleared out surprisingly early considering it was Friday night.
I finally hopefully have things settled with the cats and their boarding. I need to get one of them his shots because they need proof and the other ones records should be faxed to me tomorrow along with proof for both of them being neutered (that’s more for my apartment managers). Wednesday is going to be a pain because I have to try to round up the cat and get him in his carrier, find the vet then bring him back and rush to get ready and go to work but it will be worth it (I hope) and he will have any shots he needs for the next time I have to board him. So, finally things will be taken care of for them and that will be one less thing to worry about and hassle with. I had an offer by someone to take care of them but honestly it just seems easier to board them, more expensive, but easier. that way I don’t have to worry about them escaping (I have very tricky little cats) and I will know for sure they won’t get forgotten or be alone or anything, not to mention I won’t be hassling anyone who doesn’t already get paid for it.
I am finally getting some plans together for the holidays and after, a lot of it depends on a bunch of things but they are at least starting to form and I have back ups. It will most likely be a very expensive season (flights, boarding the cats again for longer, gifts, etc) but I am really looking forward to it. I was thinking of shortening the trip and missing our families annual dinner but in the end I have decided that I really want to go and have been looking forward to it for a while. My mom says she will for sure be in town so it will be all of us together again, maybe for the last time for a while so I definitely want as much time as possible. Not to mention I have tons of stuff I want to do in California and I don’t want to just cram it all into a really short period, I always end up missing stuff that way. I am making my lists and making the plans and talking to my mom and getting super excited, December is going to be interesting but hopefully it will turn out awesome.
Midnight Farming…
Ever wake up and know you weren’t having a very good sleep? Not or any reason in particular, you just wake up and think it even if you don’t necessarily feel it? I don’t know if that makes sense but that’s how I felt when I just woke up. I am not sure why, maybe it is the heat (it isn’t even that hot really, it’s either my apartment or me, I’m not sure) or maybe something is going on but hopefully when I go back to bed it will be better, I doubt it, but I can be hopeful. I am tired but farming on facebook is addicting to my husband and apparently his farm needs money. what kind of monster have I created? 
I have been curled up with my second book and just have not been online, haven’t even really thought about my computer. The book is almost finished though so after that I will be back on the computer instead of reading until my eyes go fuzzy. I need to find more books to read. My stuff should be getting here with in a couple of weeks and I know I have some stuff I have yet to read in there, but new stuff is always good. Anyone have any suggestions? I am usually picky about my books but I will check into anything thats offered. I need to buy Brisingr, the latest in the Eragon series (final? I think it is only a trilogy) but I don’t like buying hard cover books because they are so expensive and I haven’t seen a paperback yet. (Edit: I lied, I found it but it is still oddly expensive, I will get it eventually.)
I get to sleep in a tiny bit tomorrow (today?), woot! It’s only a little bit but that is still nice, and tomorrow should be a fun day so I am happy about that. Well, kind of fun, I honestly don’t know what to expect but it isn’t the standard office day so I am happy. I am slowly learning how to do more and more at work and I am happy about that. I still don’t know how to do much but I am happy that I am learning. My supervisor even said I was picking things up fast, yay! I am glad to hear that, I don’t know if it is true or if she was just saying it to make me feel good but whatever the case, it did make me feel good and I am happy. I thought I wasn’t really doing that great, just kind of ok so it is nice to hear that I am doing well (with the very small amount I am doing).
Everyone keeps asking if I have talked to hubby or had any progress yet. It is understandable since I have been gone for a week and a half but still kind of weird. I feel like maybe they will look down on me for just sitting and waiting, maybe they will think I should walk and am letting myself be stupid. Whatever the case, it doesn’t matter, I will do what I will do and honestly they don’t really make me feel like they look down on me. They are just talking and trying to see if they can help in anyway, it is probably me looking down at myself. One of the many pieces looking at another piece and saying, “what the hell girl?” Whatever, not much to do for now expect sit and wait and think and maybe kick myself later. I did find out some good information though and at least gave myself an idea of a time line. It will still be a while yet before I do anything, I want him to make the decision and take the lead on this since it is his issues to be dealt with, but I can have a small idea of where I stand. Then again things can always shift with me and I can cut my time line a lot shorter. Sometimes I feel like that is what I should do and be done with it all, then that little piece of my starts to cry and convinces me not to. I hate this situation, though I discovered today, curled up with my book that I am starting to become more and more ok and even confident on my own. I am getting to the point where I feel less alone and more content verging on happy. It is something I need and I am wondering if it will do some interesting things to me. Probably not, but you never know.
