Oh so clever…
I actually did something computer related all by myself! I installed the router to make our internet actually wireless AND I even password protected it…all on my own! I am so proud, I know nothing about computers and it took me a while and the comcast person I talked to for assistance was stupid and left the chat before I was done but whatever “Oh the cleverness of me!” I am happy. I now have my computer back and all of my favorites and extra nifty stuff that is specific to my light and easy to use compy, I missed it. This happened a couple of days ago so admittedly I am late on the blog entry, it happens.
Work has been blah, up and down good and bad. I have actually felt somewhat useful work wise but I have also been getting a lot of homework done. That should tell you how bored I have been that I resorted to homework. On that note I am actually making some progress in my classes, not enough and I still have a lot of catching up to do but I am not as far behind as I was so yay! My art class is making me want to find my old sketchbook but sadly I have no idea where to even start looking for it. I think it may be lost in one of my book boxes and if that is the case it may never be found again…or at least until I get a bookshelf but I have so much other furniture that is priority over bookshelf. I need a dresser, dining room table etc…it will all come together eventually when I have money.
Hubby got switched shops and it looks like he will *finally* be making money. He kept getting screwed at the other shop but this one actually seems busy and even just in four days of this week he has made more hours than he did pretty much any week at his other shop. I am really hoping this time it actually works like we hope and plan and are told it will. We can definitely use the extra money and he can definitely use the happy boost he would get from actually having work and bringing in decent money. All around if this turns out better than it is win. He also has stumbled into a set schedule with this shop which I like, the only variable is which days he has off but the daily hours are the same.
Other than that not a whole lot, this is the quick bare basic run down because my eyes hurt from staring at the computer at work all day and I am tired of typing because of my homework. Excuses, excuses but that is the way of it lately. Anyways, tomorrow is hubby’s birthday so we are hoping for a fun night tomorrow night and then crashing out for the rest of the weekend then I go home next week! yay!
Week from HELL!
It started this last weekend, my cat passed away. This fat fuzzball has been with me for so long and through everything, he was my company when I got out here and was all alone and I loved him so much and he was happy and healthy. Hubby got home and Wicker ran up to him happy as usual then about 10 minutes later I was just getting out of the shower and hubby called me because something was wrong. We rushed him to the emergency vet but they said nothing could be done, it was pretty much instant. Apparently it was either some sort of cardiac something or a blood clot, something that is quick and not preventable and apparently happens with cats. It hit me hard and I honestly don’t know how to deal with it. I don’t know how to let go and mourn and move on, I don’t even think I have dealt with my dad’s death, I just don’t know how to handle it all and it takes so much energy.
Then I get to work and this week has just been long even though we had Monday off. We are having a lot of our policies undermined and it is making things a lot harder on us for stupid reasons and because people cry too much. Then with joint basing we are getting caught up in the middle and are getting so messed up. Also, a new thing has been implemented that Friday, which used to be our shop PT day and was my favorite because it was more relaxed and I could actually concentrate on what I needed to improve personally, is now a “wing run” day. So, now our entire wing which is a ridiculous amount of people must all find parking and meet in a specific spot, run 2 miles (thankfully not in formation and at our own pace) and then all try to shower and change in the small locker rooms…or some can go back to their shops if they are lucky enough. The logistics are going to be stupid. There is also a rumor that Tuesday’s and Thursday’s will be shop PT which means 5 days of PT…I am hoping the shop PT works out in my favor but we will see, that is still a lot of PT and a lot of time that I was happy with that is being taken away. I also discovered a couple of days ago that I have to work this Saturday doing something stupid, the one day I had all to myself without hubby and the one day we could save on some gas because we wouldn’t have to mess with switching the car around and drive back and forth so many times…
Also, got into a massive fight with hubby. I had my thoughts that I was thinking were right and I thought I was going the right direction and I thought things were stable and then I got the rug pulled out from under me. I got all turned about and some things I thought I had right I didn’t and some things I am going back and thinking maybe my opinion was inaccurate before and I am just spending a lot of time second guessing and now going over stuff I thought I had already dealt with and having to look at it again and try to find some other new perspective. It sucks, I am so tired and ready to be done with the problems and just get to the happy.
We are broke…no matter how I budget and how prepared I am some extra expense always pops up and makes us so stupid broke. I had things going well with my money and then expense after expense demanded payment. I now can just perfectly cover my bills but I don’t just have my bills. I have other stuff that will be coming out of my account that I don’t know if I have the money to cover. I was counting on hubby to give me the money because they are his expenses that he told me he would pay me back for but he miscalculated. Thankfully he gets paid weekly so I have pretty much decided to just take his entire next check if I have to, I won’t let myself get over drawn or more important bills go unpaid because of his expenses.
Blarg! When does it get better?
Sick…
Ugh…hubby is sick. Not flu type sick just really bad cold. He is coughing a ridiculous amount which makes it so he can’t fall asleep until about 4 in the morning. So much for trying to get our sleep schedules to sync up. For the past couple of nights he has also been sleeping on the couch so he doesn’t wake me up, it is understandable, I am a really light sleeper and I need the sleep, it just sucks. Whatever, not like he was going to sleep with me anyway so I didn’t get to cuddle or anything, he just randomly shows up in the middle of the night, wakes me up while he gets in to bed and tries to talk to me then falls asleep.
I am frustrated. I am ridiculously broke right now, like literally I have budgeted down to my last dollar and though technically I have money in my account it is already spoken for. I write out a check every month to the same guy and it takes him forever to cash it but I am not going to spend the money hoping he won’t, therefor, I am broke. This also means I am stuck at home which could be nice except my apartment is jam packed with stuff and hubby and I aren’t doing anything, no connection no fun. He picks up his computer and is lost. As soon as he grabs his I grab mine and that is how the night progresses until I go to sleep. I was irritated last night and told him about it and here I sit tonight in the same situation. He got a message from someone he hasn’t talked to in years so that is why he said he has been on so long, fine, whatever.
Kudos to him for starting to wash the blankets and sheets (he needed to so he could get the cat hair off of them and hopefully sleep in the room tonight) but seriously if you are going to do that just freaking do it. Don’t let the crap sit in the washer and dryer while you are playing online with whomever especially when I specifically said before I was even close to coming home that I would be taking over the washer and dryer when I got home. GRR! I hate this, one thing gets me frustrated then it all builds up and now I am just in a horrible mood and I can’t even cuddle up in bed and go to sleep because dear hubby couldn’t finish the stupid blankets. URG! I need a vacation…
Habitat for Humanity
So hubby and I went with my shop to go do some volunteer work. A while ago I set it up so we could all go to help out with Habitat for Humanity. Yesterday there was a minor panic because they tried to cancel on me and tell that the person who schedule me accidentally scheduled me for Monday instead of today. Luckily the man in charge of the build said he would try to find stuff for us to do and let us help today. There ended up being enough for us to do and I actually had some fun. The rest of the group seemed to complain a bit but that’s ok, I think that is just the way we all are when we get together. Anyway, we got to do a lot of shoveling, they had a whole plan for us set for Monday but since we came earlier it was just a kind of whatever they could find for us. It worked out, we got in some volunteer work, got a day off of work and got in some good exercise. I think this whole week has been good for exercise with the picking up around the base and today.
Hubby and I woke up really early today and finally finished off the Uhaul. We had to turn it in today and we just barely got it all cleaned out and set. We originally thought we would be able to borrow a bit of storage from our friend but apparently she decided that wouldn’t work so we had to last minute run to get a storage at the Uhaul shop. We have a month free because of the one way rental so hopefully we can get it cleared out before that month is up. The ability to clear it out has a lot to do with hubby managing to find a job so hopefully that happens within the month time frame. We also have to unpack a bunch of stuff that is all over the apartment. Hubby says he plans to work on one or two boxes a day minimum for now until we can get through all of it. We are also planning to trash and donate a lot of stuff so I think this is going to be a long process. Oh well, hopefully we can clear out what we need to and be happy in a nice comfy clean apartment.
This Third Floor Thing is Gonna Suck…
He is here! He finally made it here lateish in the night but that didn’t stop us from going out to a nice dinner. I dressed up for him before he got here and met him at the gate, once he parked the truck we were off because we were both starving. We were both tired but we still had fun and seemed to be happy. We didn’t talk about anything deep or heavy, just light fun topics. Today is the day that we are going to go crazy trying to unpack the stupid truck. I am absolutely not looking forward to it but unfortunately it is a necessary evil. At least at the end of that I get to have a bunch of my old stuff back and hopefully discover some things that I have been missing. And, luckily, he got extra days for the truck so if we don’t get it all done today it won’t be a problem for anything except maybe parking in my complex. Meh, worst case scenario we go park it at Wal Mart or something. But the extra days are good because we are having dinner tonight with some friends so not having to stress about having it all done at a certain time is good. I have tomorrow off as well so it gives me an extra day to help unpack. This is one of those weekends that I am going to be cursing the fact that I live on the third floor…boo. Anyway, I am currently letting the poor boy sleep in for a bit considering he has been in a truck for a while and was exhausted from driving and before that had been on couches since I left, I think he is quite happy to have a nice big bed to sleep in.
Only About 8 Hours To Go!
Woot! Hubby is finally on his way! He left last night but only got a few hours in before he stopped to sleep but he is back to driving now. He is past the Grapevine and my next worry is Mount Shasta since it will be mountain windy roads with possible rain and or snow. He is about 8-9 hours away though so I am excited. All I can say is it is about time! He kept running into a ton of problems when he was packing up the truck and he would call me all upset asking what he was supposed to do. I was just kind of sitting here most of the time wondering what the hell I was supposed to do seeing as I was in Washington. We think we seriously miscalculated the cost to fill up the tank but hopefully he still has enough money to get up here. Once we actually figured out how much it took to fill the tank we recalculated and he should be able to make it…hopefully.
I have just started to clean and get my apartment ready. I figure with another 8 hours it should be fine, this place doesn’t take a lot of cleaning. I just need to actually try to reorganize some stuff on top of the usual cleaning but even that shouldn’t take long because there isn’t a lot of ways to reorganize it. I am going to try to get some clothes out of the way, maybe put my blues and uniform stuff in the hall closet or something since I don’t use them very often, I’m not sure. I need a dreser or some plastic sealable bins to put my out of season clothes in but seeing as we aren’t sure he will have the money to keep up with gas I think I will wait before making any extra purchases.
I think snowboarding for this year is out. We were going to try to go this month but honestly I think it just won’t happen but he seems to be ok with that and even though I really wanted to do it I am fine too. At least I have the pants and jacket so I won’t have to worry about it next year. The plan at the moment seems to be get him here and then he wants to pretty much immediately try to start working again. Hopefully he can work at the shop on base to make carpooling easier but we will have to see. If not then my supervisor has already said it would be fine if I ride with her to work so it will work out one way or the other. Hopefully he can get a job really quick which will be extra money coming in. Obviously he brings in extra bills so if he is bringing in the money to cover them plus some extra it should be nice. On my own I usually have a little bit of extra money to play with so he should have enough to cover himself so we aren’t always stuck in the apartment. Other than that our new goal is to try to eat a lot healthier than we have been which may be hard on a budget but to also work out more. We have the gym in our apartment we may as well take advantage of it. With a little work hopefully we can both get to where we want to be and that will help us be happier in general, I know being more in shape is making me happier in general already so actually getting to where I want to be will be awesome. I actually ran about one and a half to two miles with out stopping the other day and the last time I did that was tech school before my waiver so yay!
I don’t know what to do with all of this…
Blarg, so Hubby got the Uhaul today which unfortunately is more money than I expected and so we will be broke for this month. Also he delayed in actually picking it up because of rain which means that he didn’t get it all packed like he planned today which means he has to finish packing tomorrow and isn’t just going to be him driving up and getting here ASAP like planned. Also, unfortunate is we think the guy who transferred our stuff to the garage stole a bunch of our stuff including hubby’s one of a kind pool cue, his speakers set he got for his computer, our XBOX 360 and our PS3. The speaker set hubby has actually seen in this guys room and he claims he just happened to buy this exact same set off of “some guy”, he also has a 360 with smudge marks and other marks that look ridiculously similar to the ones our 360 had. Irritating and frustrating, especially for me the loss of the PS3. I asked my mom not to trust this guy with our stuff and she ignored me, now hubby is angry in general which comes back at me and I am angry as well and trying not to put it on him for not sending all of the stuff up while it was being taken care of by the Air Force. I am just so frustrated in general, such a stupid situation and I am so frustrated. GRR! I don’t even know how to let all of this out…
Facebook Niftyness!
Ha, I have just recently discovered that my flight from basic has a group on facebook, kind of nifty I must say. It is nice to talk to them all again and reconnect, basic was a tough time but it was a good time for me and I miss a lot of the people. Good times, good memories and good people though I am glad I am not there anymore.
I think I am getting sick or something. I woke up with a nasty kink in my neck…or something is pinched, I’m not really sure of anything except it hurts. Then through out the day I have just gotten worse, I feel a bit clouded in general and a little snuffly and stuffy with a sore throat and a headache. I really hope it doesn’t get any worse, I really really hope it just goes away by tomorrow.
I have tomorrow off, yay Saturday, but I am teaching on Sunday again. Not too bad because I get an extra day of but I have discovered my supervisor would have given me the day of anyway so that I could unpack the uhaul and get fully moved. Oh well, hopefully it will be a while before I end up doing this again and it looks good that I volunteer for the extra stuff, right? Meh, Make it through the four hours of class and then I get a day off. This week will hopefully pass quickly. Monday is PT so it’s short, Tuesday will probably just be boring, and Wednesday hubby picks up the Uhaul and packs up! Then Thursday he is driving and I have Friday off and he will hopefully be here Friday so yay! He is thinking he will be able to make the drive in one day. Supposedly it is like a 17 hour drive straight up and that’s if nothing is closed off for weather and without bad traffic. His plan is to leave super freaking early in the morning and just keep driving until he gets here. I figure if he can make it that way he would get in at maybe 11ish at night? If he can’t it will still hopefully have him coming in Friday afternoon so we can get some stuff unloaded then spend a nice weekend hopefully relaxing. I think we will have to get a storage unit, at least for a bit until he can get his work thing straightened out and get his tool box taken there. That tool box is a pain that will follow us forever, too bad it is so necessary and too bad I am in a third floor apartment. I should have tried to get a first floor but I just didn’t want to move all of my stuff again. Hopefully after six months we will move or something but I doubt it. By that time we should have extra money floating around but we probably won’t have had the chance to save much. Probably be here for a year-ish unless the military moves me, bleh. Oh well, worries for a later time.
Happy New Year!
I did not DD. I instead got very drunk. We went out, my friend, her husband and one of his friends and I enjoyed myself. I think by the time we left I had taken 1 shot and was working on my 5th cocktail. Maybe not a lot to many people out there but considering I don’t drink often at all it was enough to get me pretty drunk. We hung out and watched the live band which wasn’t spectacular but they were a cover band so they had a lot of variety of music I knew which made it better. We stayed pretty much until right at midnight then called a taxi to take us home. All in all a very fun night and I think I surprised them by actually drinking and drinking to that point.
So, now comes the traditional New Year’s moment…the resolution, though I don’t entirely like calling them that because it seems that New Year’s resolutions are somewhat created to be broken or have a general idea that they will be. I want to actually make mine stick so it is just general change I am going for I guess, my plan and outline and goals for the new year. One way or the other I must get in shape, that isn’t an option because I have to pass my PT evals, however, I would like to be beyond basic passing of the evals. I would absolutely love to get excellent on my PT test though I don’t know if that will actually happen. That is something that would be nice but I am not going to crazy stress over. I want to get my marriage straightened out and get it to where it should be. Obviously I want us to be happy but that is a very vague desire, I want us stable and I want us to reach a point we haven’t been before. We honestly have always struggled a bit, we were happy but there was fighting and there was trying to change each other and there was stress from one thing or another, I don’t want that. I want us to accept each other, to move on from past hurts and to start fresh with full commitment to making each other happy. My big major goal of this year is to get the stupid Pontiac paid off. It is doable, it may be tight but it is doable if I put extra money from my tax return and other money I have to it. I am excited because short of rent that is the biggest bill I have every month, getting rid of that means I have an extra $285 a month to play with. That is a lot of extra money to have and I want it. As far as work goes I want to pass my test for upgrade training and I want to get an excellent score on that. It will be tough so the basic is passing it but the extra bonus is getting an awesome score, if I manage it I get days off so yay. I also want to set myself up well for putting in my package for below the zone so I can get promoted faster. For now I think that is it for the major goals and ideas, if I think of more I will probably adjust things later but for now that is the plan for 2010. Hope everyone had a great New Year’s party and has an amazing new year!
PS. I have been corrected by my sister, I apologize in my past posts where I wrote resign rather than re-sign, I went back and edited but I may not have caught all of them so while you are reading keep in mind that I re-signed my lease, not resigned it. Love you sis, lol.
Back to Washington
I am home in Washington. I got in last night, my supervisor picked me up and took me to my car which was parked at the shop. Apparently while I have been gone Washington has been cold and wet, not a good mix for my poor car sitting outside with no cover. I tried to open the driver door and it was frozen shut. I laughed, I have never been in a situation like that, my supervisor laughed and said, “aw, poor you, you’ve never had your car frozen shut before?” and then came and pulled it open for me. I was kind of worried I would break something when I first grabbed the handle so I guess I was just too scared to really pull hard enough. Anyway, I put the key in and luckily it started…barely, it was a slow quiet start but it got there. I flipped on the defroster and went to sit in her warm car until it started working on the ice on the windows. When it started to defrost I figured it was warm enough so I let her go home since it was late and went to sit in my car. It still wasn’t warm, just a little warmer than the ice, lol. It took a few songs on my CD before I was somewhat warm and I had things clear enough to take off home. It was a fun new experience though hopefully it gets warmer and I don’t have to deal with it again. Apparently while I was gone the hill that my apartment complex is on got icy so as my supervisor was driving down it to get to the main road she couldn’t stop. Luckily there was no one in the way and she made it onto the road fine but I am very glad it wasn’t me dealing with that. She said even if I had been there she would have driven me because she doesn’t trust me in my car (it is a midsized SUV with rear wheel drive) to make it on ice. Glad I can car pool with her if things get bad enough, hopefully it doesn’t but it is still only early winter.
Hubby is stuck in California still, it is sad but at least I know he will be out here soonish. He needs to call some people tomorrow and get his transfer pushed through but one way or the other he is getting up here. If he does it soon enough then we can go on a snowboarding trip that my friend is planning with her husband and his friend and maybe another co worker of ours. I kind of hope he gets out here in time because that sounds like a lot of fun and I was planning on doing a snowboarding trip when I got back anyway. Once he gets his transfer pushed through we can reserve the uhaul and then soon I will finally have him here and have all of my stuff here…which is a lot. I was talking to him earlier about maybe renting a house out here but I am not sure how well that will work out anymore. It would take extra money for a deposit which I don’t really have right now plus I can barely furnish my apartment let alone a house, also I think the utilities would be a bit more expensive than the apartments utilities and I would like to save as much money as possible and put it toward knocking out some debts. I figure maybe sign on for another 6 month lease and see where we are at the end of that, hopefully better.
