Sick!
I hate being sick!! I am stuffy and congested and blah…
I think I am maybe starting to get a bit better but it comes and goes so I have to wait and see. Either way I have to get back to work tomorrow and hopefully be better because I won’t really have a real day off again until the 11th, gotta love the military.
I used to think I would make the military a career, I wanted to be in at least 20 years. Once I got in I still thought that way, it was fun and structured and what I needed and wanted…at the time. I am started to branch out now and thinking maybe I don’t want to do the full 20, maybe now I am capable of being on my own without the tons of structure. I am starting to think of being a teacher again. I had thought of it before and liked the idea but was never really sure but left the idea alone, now I am thinking it might be fun. I have another four years to go on my enlistment which is fine, it’s a lot of time to think but now I am more open to branching out. There are a lot of things to think about like job stability, insurance, where to live and all of the questions that are easily settled by just being in the military, maybe it is all stuff I just decided to avoid by joining the military, it was an easy answer when I couldn’t make any other decisions. We will see how it goes but at least I am finally thinking about other things and I think I am going to start going to school again, not a lot all at once but start on it.
Funny how a couple days of being sick leads to some life decisions, this is what happens with so much time to think. I am also leaning towards waiting on kids. I *really* want them and my family and friends are pushing but I have only just recently hit actual happiness with my husband without all of the crazy stress and issues. We still have stuff to work through but we have finally grown up and are just getting our money together and I want to enjoy it. I will still give him the looks when we pass kids and poke and pester him but honestly, I think just not right now. That also rolls into the potential teaching idea, I want to concentrate on school and setting up my life and though I may not be done with school by the time we have kids I want to at least get everything rolling first, get all of the bills paid off that we can and enjoy some time with just me and the hubby for a bit. I can finally have the honeymoon period I never got, why should I try to cut it short?
Halloween!!
Halloween, yay! It’s over now obviously and I think this year was a bit disappointing for me. Friday was supposed to be a maze day, there was a big corn maze that we were supposed to go to but we ended up not. It was originally planned as a group outing with one of my friends but she ended up opting out which kind of killed it. Saturday was spent as a night working at our squadron’s haunted forest which was ok but I am not the kind of person who is good at scaring random people so I just kind of wandered. Yesterday we went to a “party” it was more of just a hang out. I only ended up out for about a half an hour before going home, the group wasn’t too bad, kind of interesting but not really my crowd. We ended up not carving pumpkins this year which I was actually really bummed about but there is nothing I can really do about it.
I came home, passed out and woke up sick…I had a bit of a sore throat when I went to bed but I woke up pretty crappy feeling so I went to sick call. Lucky me, doctor put me on quarters for 2 days. This could be a good thing except we have an exercise coming up but I really hope I don’t mess anything up by being unable to go to work. I wanted to get this sick feeling gone before the exercise which is why I didn’t even mess with it and just went to the doc but hopefully it doesn’t come around that it would have been a better option to just suck it up.
Other than that life is pretty good, money is (for now at least) doing better. I ended the last month with a little extra and not having to balance money around, it was a very strange feeling. I thought I had missed paying a bill or something and kept checking over and over but it was all paid and good. It was surprising but worked out for the better because now I need a new power cord for my computer and I can actually afford to buy it! Next I maybe will save enough to buy the external hard drive I want and save all my music and stuff to that. It is nice to not have to freak about money so hopefully hubby’s work doesn’t mess with him anymore and we can finally get comfy and stable and out of debt. I can’t wait to get the freaking car payments done.
I think for now that is it, my mind is just too jumbled to make sense of much right now so I am rambling…I think it is time for a nap…
The Smell of the Seasons
There is a certain something that goes with the burning hazelnut candle on my coffee table, cuddling in a warm blanket and watching a dark movie like Interview with a Vampire with the lights down and the feeling of fall all around. I have a peace that I have not felt in a long time, hubby is at work and I can’t wait for him to get home and join me in this wonderful mood.
It is that amazing time of year where the feeling of everything starts to change, the trees take on the colors of fire and their leaves fall like snow, the smell in the air is one of spices and autumn and the holidays are coming around. We will have Halloween coming very soon with all of the childish fun and excitement it brings, kids dressed in cute little outfits, tons of candy, fun decorations and scary entertainment. I have movies picked out on netflix set for a movie marathon should that be the choice for Halloween night or I may go to a party or out with friends, there are so many options. Then there will be Thanksgiving, the first Thanksgiving with my husband in Washington as well as the first I can do anything. Last year I had my wisdom teeth pulled the day before but this year our shop is thinking of getting together and having a shop Thanksgiving meal for those of us not going home. A fun group gathering for our odd little family. Then the smooth transition into the winter holidays, the subtle change of scents from cozy heavy smells you want to wrap yourself in and make you hungry to the wintery fresh scents that make you feel like you are walking through a pine forest or unwrap presents under the Christmas tree. Christmas will be a wonderful experience I hope. This will be one away from my family with just hubby and I creating our own traditions. we can decorate our own tree and unwrap presents with just us on Christmas morning. Family is always nice to have around but there is something to be said about a nice Christmas with just the hubby and I. Can we all tell that I am excited for this time of year? Summer used to be my favorite season but I think I have grown into a lover of fall and winter, I think I am equally in love with each.
I have been doing laundry on and off through out the day and cleaned up a bit here and there. The house still looks cluttered and a bit messy and we still have boxes all around and have way too much stuff but we are finally making it a home. It is really the little things that make somewhere a home, just small things probably different to each person that makes a place feel comfy and lived in. Hopefully over the next bit of time we can sort the boxes, donate a bunch of stuff and really get everything settled. We are so close and that just adds to the awesome feeling.
We also had a minor epiphany not long ago. It is something that we had vaguely realized before but it really hit home recently. I was in Hawaii for just over a week and while I was there had no real reason to spend any money. When I got home I realized just how much was left in my bank account and how much we screw around and waste money. I got back and we could actually do things and have fun! We went out yesterday to see Jo Koy perform because I found out the day of that he was in the area and actually had money for tickets. We had the money to buy lights and a coffee table to help with our home, we could actually do what we wanted without being afraid that we couldn’t pay bills! It is a great feeling and hopefully one that can keep up. When we discovered how much extra there was we did the calculations and saw how much we could have, not enough to be rich by any means but enough for us young adults to live a life and enjoy it. Now I am planning to settle in tonight and budget and hopefully get a lot of our old debts paid faster and get rid of them and still balance everything and have fun, that is the goal at least. I think I will also start cooking a bit more at home, or maybe strike a deal with my husband, he cooks the 2 days he has off, I cook the 2 I have off and we can eat cheap food or leftovers the other three days. With us living so close to work we are already saving a ton on gas, especially since he works really close to me so we have managed to cut down a decent amount of spending so far. The whole idea of getting things paid off and potentially having money really makes me happy and excited and that excitement seemed to have finally hit my dear hubby.
Frustration!!
Oh boo…I have very possibly found an apartment. It would be a 2 bedroom 1 bathroom for 777 a month rather than 1155. the boo part? They only have at this point 1 apartment coming available at the end of the month and would need the application fee of 40 and then as soon as that finishes they need the (at least) 300 deposit, I can’t give the deposit until my mid month paycheck and they would need it 24 hours after the application goes through. That all means that I have to wait until I put in my application until the middle to end of this week so I may lose the apartment I want because I have to wait. The apartment has an indoor pool (as well as an outdoor), indoor basketball/volleyball court a nice fitness center and a really close commute to work plus the super cheap rent. The actual apartment would be smaller than we have now but I am honestly ok with that with all of the extra stuff we would get plus the cheaper rent. They have a 2 bedroom 2 bathroom opening up the first week of August but I wasn’t interested in that one because that would mean I would have to pay rent to the current apartment and I wasn’t sure I could afford that plus the first month’s rent I would have to pay to the other place. I hate money issues!!
Obviously my budget is completely screwed…If I can get this apartment stuff handled this month then next month should be great and back on track maybe even better than before but for right now I am verging on panicking. I can technically afford to stay at the apartment I am in but it would be barely and it would make everything else so stupid tight. My husband is now getting paid every two weeks rather than every week because he is paid through insurance now because of his injury. This is horrible timing, if he was still getting the large amount every week then there wouldn’t really be the problem of not having the $300 deposit. I don’t even know how much he is for sure getting paid which sucks for trying to budget and he got his first check which was for only one week instead of two and was somewhat small and he has pretty much spent the whole thing which actually really irritates me. We ran into this apartment stuff before he got paid and I was telling him how tight we needed to be with money to actually make this worse and he went spending a huge amount that would have been helpful. I get wanting fireworks for the fourth but you don’t have to spend tons of money and he didn’t have to go party at the bar and spend all of the money on drinks, it is so stupid and frustrating to me. I feel bad because he just wants to enjoy the money he makes and actually have fun but in order to get to the point where we can have enough to have fun with we need to be really tight and save, I don’t think he gets that.
Arg…anyone wanna spot me a few hundred so I can secure an apartment? I’ll pay you back in a couple of weeks!
Happy Birthday Hubby
Hubby’s birthday party was yesterday and I am happy to report that he seems to have had a fun night. We went to “his” bar across the street and our friend put together a fun party. She decorated and took care of everything which I am really happy for because I couldn’t afford to do anything for him. Everybody bought him drinks and he had a great time. I didn’t manage to stay the whole night but he got home and he was blitzed! He woke up this morning and he didn’t have any hangover or anything, just some fun stories to tell. I am a bit bummed that I didn’t have the money to afford anything for him or do anything for the party myself but unfortunately that was just how this month has worked out apparently. Hopefully next month is better.
Oh so clever…
I actually did something computer related all by myself! I installed the router to make our internet actually wireless AND I even password protected it…all on my own! I am so proud, I know nothing about computers and it took me a while and the comcast person I talked to for assistance was stupid and left the chat before I was done but whatever “Oh the cleverness of me!” I am happy. I now have my computer back and all of my favorites and extra nifty stuff that is specific to my light and easy to use compy, I missed it. This happened a couple of days ago so admittedly I am late on the blog entry, it happens.
Work has been blah, up and down good and bad. I have actually felt somewhat useful work wise but I have also been getting a lot of homework done. That should tell you how bored I have been that I resorted to homework. On that note I am actually making some progress in my classes, not enough and I still have a lot of catching up to do but I am not as far behind as I was so yay! My art class is making me want to find my old sketchbook but sadly I have no idea where to even start looking for it. I think it may be lost in one of my book boxes and if that is the case it may never be found again…or at least until I get a bookshelf but I have so much other furniture that is priority over bookshelf. I need a dresser, dining room table etc…it will all come together eventually when I have money.
Hubby got switched shops and it looks like he will *finally* be making money. He kept getting screwed at the other shop but this one actually seems busy and even just in four days of this week he has made more hours than he did pretty much any week at his other shop. I am really hoping this time it actually works like we hope and plan and are told it will. We can definitely use the extra money and he can definitely use the happy boost he would get from actually having work and bringing in decent money. All around if this turns out better than it is win. He also has stumbled into a set schedule with this shop which I like, the only variable is which days he has off but the daily hours are the same.
Other than that not a whole lot, this is the quick bare basic run down because my eyes hurt from staring at the computer at work all day and I am tired of typing because of my homework. Excuses, excuses but that is the way of it lately. Anyways, tomorrow is hubby’s birthday so we are hoping for a fun night tomorrow night and then crashing out for the rest of the weekend then I go home next week! yay!
Ow…
OUCH! Why is my knee causing so much pain right now?! I haven’t been running for a couple of weeks now, shouldn’t it be getting better? Ugh, I guess this just proves to me how useless it is to take time out to try to recover, I think my knees are just doomed to hurt unfortunately. I guess I will wait until the end of the month when my waiver is up and hope it improves, if not then I guess I just tough it out and suck it up. In the mean time I am still below 140, yay! I had a brief scare where I thought I had gone above it but I think it was just because I had eaten so much salt, it was going to happen with the whole being broke thing, ramen does contain a ton of salt.
Payday is tomorrow and I can’t wait! I am hoping that this payday things finally start to straighten out, it will still be tight but hopefully it will be settled so it isn’t beyond tight and into the negatives. I think I can manage to get the extra debts and ticket paid and still have some money left for basic necessities. I am thinking I will try to go as long as possible without spending any extra money, just grocery shopping, bills and gas. This is going to be super hard but I think it is necessary, I need this over spending to stop, I am tired of living paycheck to paycheck. I joined the Air Force to get away from that and here I am still doing it, time for change. I kind of have things planned out and hubby hopefully does too so hopefully he will be able to give me the money he is supposed to so I can budget and buy better food.
I want to buy good healthy food! My body is totally craving fresh fruits and veggies and real food! I need to figure out what staples to buy for my kitchen and how to budget it all so that we have money and can still eat healthy. It’s not easy but I know it is possible, I just have to figure out how. I have finally started cooking lentils and brown rice and kind of tinkering and have a few recipes that make them pretty tasty (chicken broth is definitely a staple in my kitchen). They were sitting in my pantry for a while but desperation got me there and I am glad, healthy, tasty and cheap, exactly what we needed. I think hubby is getting a bit tired of the brown rice because we have had it the last three nights in a row but whatever, he can deal because there really isn’t anything else. I also managed to use random stuff through out the kitchen to make steak three nights in a row, I scrounged around the kitchen and dinners actually turned out pretty good. I used general recipes but kind of tinkered and I guess I have some ideas and kitchen sense. Tonight will be a scrounging night but I am going to budget and plan meals and get my kitchen straight!!
This is my goal, to get my whole life straight and organized. I want my apartment unpacked and I have a plan for it. I have a friend coming in Sunday who will be helping Hubby and I finally get it done! Now hubby can’t say in a minute because she won’t let him and it is a whole plan for the day so he can’t make an excuse and I can’t either. I am hoping to take control of what I can and try to make myself happier. I will get my kitchen set up and get my apartment set up too, my life will finally be organized and clutter free in every way I can manage. And maybe we will sell off some of that old stuff and make a little extra money, that would certainly be a very nice bonus.
Motivate Me!
Quick! Somebody pump me full of motivation!! I need to get really caught up and into my classes but I am just so bleh about it. I don’t know why, maybe the subjects aren’t that interesting but I feel like there is so much to do and yet not enough? There are a lot of little things to do but nothing that requires ridiculous amounts of effort so there is lots to do but not so much at the same time. I will get around to it eventually…hopefully. I also have to get hubby to help me with my communications stuff still and it just isn’t that easy because when he gets home I don’t want to do homework, I want to talk to him and enjoy time with him.
Easter Egg Bust
Blarg! I am broke again…eventually this will stop happening. I think we have our system worked out, we just have to clear up the mess from the end of last month and hopefully it makes everything smoothed out and good. I also probably could have not bought the stuff for hubby’s Easter basket but I didn’t do anything for Valentine’s Day because I was so broke and it bothered me, I like having the traditions and always being able to give something for the holidays so I wanted to make sure to do something and not miss a something special again…even if it is not a lot of money put into it and a little skimpier than usual, it is still at least something.
It’s another weekend! I slept until noonish today…probably not the smartest thing but it was nice. I originally intended to get all of my cleaning done today so that tomorrow would be just relaxing with hubby since we both have the day off…I failed. I have cleaned some, dishes are done (mostly) and counters are scrubbed and I am in the process of washing the sheets and blankets. Luckily today I think I might actually remember to flip the mattress when hubby gets home, we keep meaning to do it but never manage to remember. And even though I really intended to do way more than that I got caught on Farmville in facebook and watching the mass amounts of episodes of NCIS I have recorded on the DVR, I am kind of pitiful but weekends are for relaxing.
Last night we got out a bit, they had an adult easter egg hunt at some new soccer fields down the street. It wasn’t so much of a hunt like we really thought it would be, it was pretty much a throw all of the eggs on the field and when they say go everyone runs to grab what they can. Honestly it was really disappointing, we were all crammed together but managed to be second row back, when we were released the first row pretty much grabbed everything. Hubby managed to snag one egg which had a couple of candies and a gift certificate to a place down the street for a month of some sort of martial art, I might go check it out soon and see if the certificate works for adults or just for kids. The hunt was a bummer but we ended up going to hang out with some of the friends we went with to the bar. We relaxed, hung out and played pool, it was a pretty nice night.
Beautiful Sleep
Ah the weekend, beautiful…I love sleep…
So, I have been actually watching what I am eating and really working out trying to tone and lose weight for the past week. The result? I am down 1.3 pounds at least since this week started, a few pounds since I decided to generally get better by eating better. I am happy but I really want to actually be able to see it, in time I suppose I am just not a patient person at all. I have done P90X ab ripper every other day this week plus normal PT as well as a bit of Jillian Michaels so hopefully soon I will have the results I want.
Nothing much else going on, work is work, same old same old. Hubby and I are continuing on our way hopefully making the progress we need, fighting here and there as normal. Big boo of the moment I am absolutely completely beyond broke and it sucks. I want to go out and do stuff and have fun and maybe go out on dates with my husband so both of us can be happy rather than trapped in the apartment. The bar is fun but it can only be so entertaining for so long. He may be able to play pool for hours at a time and just hang out but me? Not so much. Anyway, I am hoping that within this next month it will work itself out but we will have to see. Hopefully by June at least I will have more free money because I won’t be trying to save for the graduation. Luckily things have worked out and I don’t have to try to get a hotel room which means I can maybe have a slightly longer less stressed stay. I do, however, have to buy plane tickets not to mention have extra money for food and whatever else I might need the money for. Into July things should be awesome for the most part, one major bill paid off which is extra money in my pocket as well as hubby’s so hopefully freedom to do fun things. I am hoping to maybe finally get some exploring done. Oh, and get some good groceries without having to worry about how much it costs, maybe I can afford to eat the good healthy food finally.
