Ow…
OUCH! Why is my knee causing so much pain right now?! I haven’t been running for a couple of weeks now, shouldn’t it be getting better? Ugh, I guess this just proves to me how useless it is to take time out to try to recover, I think my knees are just doomed to hurt unfortunately. I guess I will wait until the end of the month when my waiver is up and hope it improves, if not then I guess I just tough it out and suck it up. In the mean time I am still below 140, yay! I had a brief scare where I thought I had gone above it but I think it was just because I had eaten so much salt, it was going to happen with the whole being broke thing, ramen does contain a ton of salt.
Payday is tomorrow and I can’t wait! I am hoping that this payday things finally start to straighten out, it will still be tight but hopefully it will be settled so it isn’t beyond tight and into the negatives. I think I can manage to get the extra debts and ticket paid and still have some money left for basic necessities. I am thinking I will try to go as long as possible without spending any extra money, just grocery shopping, bills and gas. This is going to be super hard but I think it is necessary, I need this over spending to stop, I am tired of living paycheck to paycheck. I joined the Air Force to get away from that and here I am still doing it, time for change. I kind of have things planned out and hubby hopefully does too so hopefully he will be able to give me the money he is supposed to so I can budget and buy better food.
I want to buy good healthy food! My body is totally craving fresh fruits and veggies and real food! I need to figure out what staples to buy for my kitchen and how to budget it all so that we have money and can still eat healthy. It’s not easy but I know it is possible, I just have to figure out how. I have finally started cooking lentils and brown rice and kind of tinkering and have a few recipes that make them pretty tasty (chicken broth is definitely a staple in my kitchen). They were sitting in my pantry for a while but desperation got me there and I am glad, healthy, tasty and cheap, exactly what we needed. I think hubby is getting a bit tired of the brown rice because we have had it the last three nights in a row but whatever, he can deal because there really isn’t anything else. I also managed to use random stuff through out the kitchen to make steak three nights in a row, I scrounged around the kitchen and dinners actually turned out pretty good. I used general recipes but kind of tinkered and I guess I have some ideas and kitchen sense. Tonight will be a scrounging night but I am going to budget and plan meals and get my kitchen straight!!
This is my goal, to get my whole life straight and organized. I want my apartment unpacked and I have a plan for it. I have a friend coming in Sunday who will be helping Hubby and I finally get it done! Now hubby can’t say in a minute because she won’t let him and it is a whole plan for the day so he can’t make an excuse and I can’t either. I am hoping to take control of what I can and try to make myself happier. I will get my kitchen set up and get my apartment set up too, my life will finally be organized and clutter free in every way I can manage. And maybe we will sell off some of that old stuff and make a little extra money, that would certainly be a very nice bonus.
Beautiful Sleep
Ah the weekend, beautiful…I love sleep…
So, I have been actually watching what I am eating and really working out trying to tone and lose weight for the past week. The result? I am down 1.3 pounds at least since this week started, a few pounds since I decided to generally get better by eating better. I am happy but I really want to actually be able to see it, in time I suppose I am just not a patient person at all. I have done P90X ab ripper every other day this week plus normal PT as well as a bit of Jillian Michaels so hopefully soon I will have the results I want.
Nothing much else going on, work is work, same old same old. Hubby and I are continuing on our way hopefully making the progress we need, fighting here and there as normal. Big boo of the moment I am absolutely completely beyond broke and it sucks. I want to go out and do stuff and have fun and maybe go out on dates with my husband so both of us can be happy rather than trapped in the apartment. The bar is fun but it can only be so entertaining for so long. He may be able to play pool for hours at a time and just hang out but me? Not so much. Anyway, I am hoping that within this next month it will work itself out but we will have to see. Hopefully by June at least I will have more free money because I won’t be trying to save for the graduation. Luckily things have worked out and I don’t have to try to get a hotel room which means I can maybe have a slightly longer less stressed stay. I do, however, have to buy plane tickets not to mention have extra money for food and whatever else I might need the money for. Into July things should be awesome for the most part, one major bill paid off which is extra money in my pocket as well as hubby’s so hopefully freedom to do fun things. I am hoping to maybe finally get some exploring done. Oh, and get some good groceries without having to worry about how much it costs, maybe I can afford to eat the good healthy food finally.
A Diet Success!
Woot! Wii fit says I am down 1.8 pounds since my last weigh and that puts me at 1.3 pounds away from being under 140! I am so excited. I was going to let my diet go a bit but I am thinking maybe not. I went out for a good buffet dinner last night and will be going out with hubby tonight but I am also going grocery shopping so I will try to get healthier stuff. I think the key was having fruit to munch on during the day, a light lunch and a lot more water than I usually drink. All in all I am happy and with luck within the next week I will be below 140 for the first time in I don’t even know when.
A Marvelous Fake Friday!
Yay fake Friday! I have the rest of the week off. Unfortunately I don’t have a hubby up here to enjoy it with but I suppose there isn’t much to do about that. I still don’t have any definite plans for New Year’s yet…hell, I don’t even have a vague idea of what I am doing. Maybe hanging out with my friend and her husband? They will probably have me DD if I do go with them and I am not sure if I really want to go out on New Year’s Eve with all of the crowds and drunks and idiots to just sit back and wait for them to get drunk and then drive everyone home. I guess we will just have to see what develops tomorrow.
I got to deposit the money from my mom today and I got paid, I was very happy, it’s a money day. I paid my rent and I am waiting for them to do the paperwork so I can finally pay the pet deposit, should be tomorrow. Then I get to have my washer fixed and stop washing by hand, I am so tired of not having a washer. I also am about to re-sign my lease, I can’t believe it has been 6 months already. Time is really flying. I would get out of the apartment and into a house but I just can’t work it and I think with all that is going on it won’t be worth it yet. Instead I will stay here and pay off some debts and work on saving some money and then see what happens from there. It would be nice to get into a house, get a dog and have some extra space, especially after we get all of our crap out here, but it just wouldn’t be smart at the moment I don’t think. I also finally got out and went grocery shopping, also a very good thing, I was so very tired of living out of my pantry. It was do able but not very tasty. Tonight I made a tri tip and green beans and cous cous, it was so very good. I also got stuff for spaghetti for some point and for chicken marsala. It took two different people who work in the grocery store to find the marsala but we did it so now I am gonna make yummy stuff with it. I spent more than I intended to so I am hoping to make what I bought last two weeks to even it out. It isn’t absolutely necessary but I am trying to save money and make up for what I spent at Christmas so it doesn’t come out of the money that is supposed to go to pay off the car. I am determined that the stupid car payment will be gone with in a year and it is a reachable goal.
A constant
ARG! What’s for dinner? This constant eternal question and problem I have. I always go through and find a bunch of recipes I want to try but by the time I am looking at them I want something quick and easy and don’t want to bother with the nonsense of full preparations and everything. Must start planning ahead more. I think I am setting myself up with a project this weekend, I need to make a recipe book and put in a bunch of these tasty looking recipes I have found, then I am gonna randomly flip to a page and that will be what I make the next week, then I can buy the ingredients and be prepared. Project number 2 I think will consist of cooking a whole chicken and cutting it up and seeing what I can do. I have checked out online and it looks kind of easy, lol, hopefully I have some good knives and shears in my kitchen. If I can deal with a whole chicken than that will be much cheaper than the boneless skinless chicken breasts I usually buy and I am all for saving money.
I want to try to trim my bills as much as possible and save so I can have extra money for whatever. Some to put toward bills, some to maybe actually decorate my apartment. I am tired of being in this constant state of broke. I have enough for stuff, just not a lot of stuff. I can pay my bills, eat, affford gas plus some extra but it seems to disappear too fast. I want to get my debts paid down as quickly as possible but I also don’t want to tighten my money to the point that al I do is sit at home so I don’t spend anything. I think I will do my best to keep better track of my money this month. I want to see where it is going and where I can save. I know part of it goes to eating out so I want to cook at home as much as possible. I was doing really well with that before I left but then I got down to nothing in my fridge and I didn’t want to fill my fridge when I would be gone for 2 weeks. But, now I am back and I can shop and set myself up.
I also want to get more in shape. I had PT today but it was very basic quick strength training with the squadron (what’s left of it due to holiday vacations) and then on our own cardio. I pushed myself pretty hard today and honestly it felt good. It hurt, and I could barely breathe, but I felt good doing it. I realized I was reaching some sort of happiness about working out, or at least pushing myself. I still have a long way to go to really get where I want but the mentality shift is an awesome thing and will make the process easier. I figure I can eat healthier if I cook for myself, I can make my own tasty meals and save money doing it. It is win win so why not? with any luck I will be in decent shape when hubby actually gets out here and I can surprise him. Supposedly it takes about 2 weeks to start seeing results and I have 3 so maybe I can make a noticeable dent, lol. If I can’t for when he arrives then it is still a good general goal. I definitely have to improve by my PT eval, I have until April I think so I have a while but I want to actually do well rather than just passable. I have crunched some numbers and if I at least get back to where I was in basic I will be beyond passable and that took me two months, with more time I think I could maybe gain the 2 points I need for excellent. Then again, in basic it was 6 days a week of PT so that could make a big difference…
Happy almost Christmas Eve!
It’s almost Christmas Eve and therefor almost Christmas! I am excited though nervous, I have no idea how this whole cooking Christmas dinner is going to go, hopefully well. Tomorrow my mom is cooking tri tip and somethings for a good tasty family dinner. I am excited, I haven’t had tri tip in a while and it is one of my favorites. We went shopping today and bought all of our stuff for tomorrow’s dinner as well as Christmas dinner and I have to say it is a lot of food. The menu my mom set up for actual Christmas dinner doesn’t seem too hard, mashed potatoes, green been casserole, turkey, stuffing and cranberry stuff. Sounds tasty so hopefully it turns out just how it sounds.
Other than the Christmas stuff things are pretty good. Hung out all day with my mom which was actually pretty fun. Obviously we did the shopping but afterward we went to get our nails done and then hung out at the house and watched some TV. We didn’t fight or stress and it was nice and fun. Tomorrow I think we are hanging out again though I may have to switch that so I can go buy her some stocking stuffers. I have no idea what to get, I need cheap but still good and I just cannot think of anything. My sister has tomorrow off as well so maybe I can run off with her at some point and she can help me find stuff for both my mom and her husband. I also would love to get something for my husband but that won’t be happening. I am way too broke and technically I already got him something, I just gave it to him early. He can deal without a gift, he will probably appreciate it, he doesn’t really have money to get me anything either. Instead it will just be trying to get time together before I head up to Washington. He is staying here for another couple of weeks so he doesn’t leave people at work hanging during their vacations. After that he should be packing up and heading up to me. I am really excited, I can’t wait to get us out there and see what happens.
Stupid Teeth
I’m bored and being bored is making me a bit irritable…I am watching more Desperate Housewives and as sad as it may be I am totally interested. The beauty of it is I have the whole season so I don’t have to wait for new episodes, I love that. I have this tendency to get bored if I have to wait for a show and generally lose interest so having it to just go through as I choose to makes me happy. I am not a terribly patient person I suppose but life is too short to spend it waiting around for things.
I am also very paranoid about getting dry socket so every random twitch and pain in my mouth I think has to be dry socket. It’s silly, I know because everybody says if it is dry socket you will know for sure but I keep thinking it is just the beginnings. I think after today which is day 4 I am for the most part out of the woods with the dry socket thing from some of what I am reading but I will probably still be a bit paranoid, at least for a few extra days. I miss eating real food though so those cravings may win out and force me to start slowly progressing throw the soft but real stuff. I donno, my big craving is mexican food right now and what I usually eat is softer so maybe I can try that? I just have to stay away from chips and salsa and that is a bit more difficult for me. For now though I will stick to the liquids and squishy stuff. Ugh…curse these wisdom teeth, gone but still a pain in my butt…
I only have a couple weeks before I go home, I am excited. Nervous but excited, the countdown keeps going…
Almost Pain…
Woot! Tomorrow will completely suck but today is great! I stopped into work today to test on some of the material I have been studying and checked my email. I got an email from my supervisor that was a forward and discovered it was a kudos for me. I tought class yesterday for some reservists and had a Lt. Col in my class, she wrote a note to my commander telling him how much she enjoyed my class and thought I was a confident teacher and did well with making sure that they knew what they needed to. I am really happy about that, my supervisor told me to save it for my annual review so yay for having another point.
I am watching more scrubs today and in a few minutes I will probably start making those soups to get ready for tomorrow. It will be a painful next week and hopefully not longer but I will get through it with soup…and the mass of other stuff I bought hopefully. Any last minute tips for wisdom teeth removal anyone?
Happy Turkey Day!
OK, obviously it isn’t really Thanksgiving but it is for me. I got my Thanksgiving meal for our squadron today and it was awesome! Our commander brought in turduckens but they were pulled out after I had already gotten my plate and they brought them out carved so I couldn’t see if they looked nifty but still, the fact that someone actually made them? Awesome…I thought they were a myth 
Anyway, I got awesome stuffing, mashed potatoes with gravy, ham, turkey, corn, green beans and macaroni and cheese and a roll, then a piece of pumpkin spice cake for dessert. I was completely stuffed but it was so good. At least I got something this year, so happy Thanksgiving to everyone, I think I will be on funny pain pills and sleeping the day of.
The Bright Side
So here I sit in a clean apartment (today is the designated cleaning day, this also applies to others I know so I wonder if it is left over from tech school?) waiting for my laundry to run through and trying to figure out what to buy at the grocery store. I am hungry and should probably eat first before I go to the store (procrastinating is simply the art of finding excuses) and then from there I will go. But I still don’t know what to buy. I only need food for about a week because after that my wisdom teeth come out and I think I will pretty much be on a liquid diet, I plan to shop for that the day before so stuff won’t go bad…or get eaten early I figure chicken, it is kind of my basic staple, and then I figured whatever is cheap but that isn’t exactly conducive to menu planning and budgeting. Oh well, I have this same issue every week, I just need to find recipes that look super easy and/or super tasty. It’s pretty much too late to buy crockpot stuff because I will want to be going to bed by the time it is done cooking, then again maybe pot roast again with more veggies and let it cook while I am at work? Then again I think I am a bit paranoid for that, I don’t like leaving things that cook unattended, but isn’t that the beauty of a slow cooker? Hm, maybe pot roast would be worth getting over it for.
So I am counting down, a usual I have a ton of count downs because I get bored and play with numbers. Anyway, I have my countdown to Christmas, that is the most obvious, countdown to my teeth getting pulled, that one is nerve wrecking and of course the one that is potentially the countdown on my marriage, that one is scary. I have myself set up surprisingly well. I have decided that if he does decide that he doesn’t want to stick around I will volunteer for a tour in Korea. Originally I thought that it is mostly seen as a place you don’t want to be stationed but I have done a little researching and found a lot of good stuff. It is actually kind of exciting though still not something I would be so quick to jump on if I stay married. If I do that it would be a little while off because I need at least a year here but I but the time that decision has been made it will be 5 months, almost halfway. Then thinking about from what I have read it takes about 6 months for a divorce to get finalized so by that time I am all ready to go. I would have to hope that he could find somewhere to live that would work with the cats and then he could have them. After a time in Korea I would be able to get a base of preference which means I could use that to do what I always wanted and move to Europe. I am really lucky. I have set myself in a position where a divorce, though painful, would open different but still great doors. I would rather be happily married but if I get to the point where that is not an option at this time then at least I can still have some fun and love my life instead of spending a ton of time unhappy and going through a routine and nothing else. Instead I will throw myself somewhere new and not give myself that routine to fall into. My question now, is this just a matter of I set myself up this way or is it a matter of perspective? I have seen many women fall apart when a marriage ends and rightfully so, but I have also seen those that lose themselves and just stop really living and seem to think that they don’t have anything else to do or any other options. As far as I see it (optimist in me), there is always other options and always the bright side and always potential, you just have to find it. Sometimes it is harder to find and sometimes you do need to take a bit of extra time, I am not saying just to jump into stuff and go crazy if a marriage ends, mourn it if you need to, but don’t let that end your life. Find your bright side and get to it, it can’t stay bad forever unless you let it.
Now that I have rambled, anyone have any dinner suggestions?
